Tuesday, December 8, 2009,8:37 PM

LARRY - you know, today really felt weird. i seem unable to feel any definite emotion. it is like i bluffed and pretended at most emotions. i felt that it just isn't me.maybe i am feeling bad from the lack of sleep and irritable, but it seems i cant control that anxiety i feel inside of me.
i didn't exactly feel like anything. i just felt that there's a small patch of something missing. i suddenly have little drive for anything. not even games.
i'm not certain about anything, but i hope after tonight's sleep, i will feel better. after all, it's my darling's and my 3rd month.
there you go, i felt the light.(=