LARRY - do you know what is weakness? Well, its something that i hate to have. I feel its no rampant as it is in myself, not being able to do a lot of things. And the next thing i ask myself: what can i do about it?
I cry, get stumped by words, feel helpless, and what more, being unable to go against the political assholes in class. Must i stoop to their level, and play their game against them? I suppose there are better ways of getting myself on and above them. But i cannot even get my physical self up to standard of most guys, and how about my mental state?
What can i do? I will push myself hard at the gyn, but now i will spend mpre time there, to rid myself of these plaguing thoughts. I need more mental strength to go beyond what crap i'm doing now. Question is, how?