LARRY - my last paper is tomorrow, and i'm a little ecstatic - man, after that, i can spend my whole time doing whatever i want! i will have so much time to dota, go weights, jog and reading! man, the thought of it is making me pretty energized.

WSS seemed like a pretty easy paper - as long as you understand instead of memorizing the points. i may be as able as those who memorize, but i do understand the concepts. i feel it's going to be a a smooth ride.

i'm just going to finish my first round of revision, and i shall rest for the night.






it's obvious. it's present. it's evident.

LARRY - left it unchecked and unhindered, and it would seem that it has grown. but was it purely hormonal or was it something that i have yearned for? i always thought that it was due to biological factors, and nothing less.

final two papers are up in a day and a half, and luckily, i had done the harder parts of the past papers since i got back home. i still need more memorization though.

no matter, i have gotten more into the mood for studying since late afternoon.


come quick, and be gone exams! (=

LARRY - man, its same old, same old. the only difference is that now is exam period, and it would seem that its going to get boring. but heck, i have to do well.

some plans i already made are to work during the holidays, and to get the timbuk2 bag i wanted, as well as to put myself even more into my exercise routines, enjoy myself in pahang, cook even more sophisticated dishes (i want to learn how to make tomato-based sauces for pasta from scratch,) probably if possible, update my blog's outlook with the use of photoshop, and to find out what i really want inside.

most of the guys are feeling the hard reality and pressure from the exams, and it shows. i just seem more tired than usual, but i'm not as stressed. come on guys, press on! its only 3 days of exams for most of you, so force all the information and theoretical studies deep into your heads! gogogogogogo and ace those exams people! (=

LARRY - my book really did motivate me. the next month or so is going to be difficult, but that isn't gonna stop me from becoming better.

for my assignments and exams, i'm going to work hard for it. i'll do up everything by next week, but i will hand up ECOM's due homework today. rush this shit for a week or two, and i can go to pahang guilt free. its not so much about being top dog now; its about being content with myself, and in the process, be a more significant player in class.

as for the dreaded 6th september, i will do my weights wholeheartedly, pushing if necessary, to build more. i will go to that stupid great grandma dinner, and show that our little part of the family will not be trodden on by the supposedly higher classed one. representing our family there, i will want to impress them, and hopefully making them think twice about antagonizing my family. by the way asses, thanks for compelling me to do my exercises (=

man, i feel so much happier. i have motivation and drive to carry this plan out, and not being so avenger-like and negative.



whoopee, my mom got me more strawberries!

LARRY - well, yesterday we went to the walkathon organized by some BA faction of Ngee Ann, and well i can say is that, it didn't went as well, but i noticed that the organizer herself, was outstanding, seemingly that she went about holding the whole event herself. 'could learn a little from her.

so the day started at 7.30, and went about preparing to get out and meet stanley at clementi. i awoke feeling very agitated; i have been dreaming about janice giving me bad grades and i really felt like giving it to her. damn, as if ECOM wasn't enough. luckily, it wasn't reality as of yet, but i'm quite unsettled. grabbed a waffle and headed on out.

we went on to commonwealth station and met huiping, and continued on to doby ghaut station. we bought soy milk, and phoned the other two girl that were to meet up. it appears they were not quite awake and were really tired, so they would not come.

at first at the event, it seemed like a good thing to stay at home, because it took so long for the people to get organized, and there were a lot more helper and volunteers then participants. either way, we had some nice sights like the tombs and a little history of Singapore, and enjoyed the scenery there. relaxing!

after the event and all, we met kevin for lunch, and some of us dispersed for home. as for stanley and i, we went to queensway to take a look at shoes and shirts.

quite much about yesterday, but it was great to go out with friends.

LARRY - maybe something's still there. i'm not so sure, but i'll leave that till after the exams. (=

LARRY - HOOJAH! spent 5 hours doing up my blog, and took especially long to perfect the picture that i had replaced. actually the main reason why i wanted to change it was that i was afraid when the author if the picture took them off, my blog will be left ugly. so i went and signed up for photobucket, and then replicate the headphones with a picture of my SR125i, and put in the scarlet words in. it seems better now.

found out how to and got rid of the super annoying faded effect filter, and the only reason it looks better on firefox is that it cannot identify the html codes, but either way, it seemed to look for... smooth and compliant with IE8.

i tried toying around with shades of red through the whole blog design; every red text are different. i went to look for help on the net to make double fonts into my blog. i used tahoma for the blog text, and for the information and links i tried arial, and it would seem good that now they are more separated.


it turns out, it was actually that simple. web publishing is simple. time to sleep!

LARRY - this post is dedicated to all that stood by me when i was down. especially huiping, for cheering me up and doing the whole video for ECOM by herself.

thanks guys, for your support. it is uplifting to have friends like you guys.

love ya all!

LARRY - damn, it seems negative for me. the truth of my grades plunging even lower than last semester's really gave me a kick in the arse. is this the true reality we are about to face in our working lives? if it is, i will have to adapt and learn.

no matter though, i will try harder still, and be better where it really matters. i really must learn from Jun Jie though, he's like the best report writer and his presentations are top notch, and no doubt, his powerpoint slides are the actual thing that hits you right in the face. kudos to you man. your work is just outstanding and impressive.

selfishness within the class is rearing its even uglier side of its face. there's no stopping now; we have all taken sides, and have had allies. mere wars it were and will have, over the most minute matters. i will stand my ground and judge who's right, and stick by them. but i will still support my TEAM LMGT mates.

we as the TEAM, have improved considerably. no longer being identified as slackmen, we pose a real challenge to those who held the throne of caliber for the last few semesters. but as for i, will be the one that will intrude into their territory and have a taste of achievement. it will be a though one.

a song that i got a few days ago really said it all -

Pushing hard each day
Keep our individuality
Elevate your mind
Strength within is what you need to find.

titled rebirth of the temple by silent civilian, and i just added into my iphone on the right so you can have a taste of it. pretty nice actually, but i'm not so sure how it has any link to being strong from within, and preserving one's ingenuity. but what i think is that it is to tear down the ropes of trends and how it is in society that binds everyone tightly and firmly, and to set a new place of worship that makes it word of law to be unique and special. lovely. in this sense, i believe it was targeted at christanity. don't quite like it myself. (=

i know i'm a tad stressed for the exams, when i find myself indulging in mountains of food. reminds me of o level days! pretty sweet back then. either way, i can't wait for what lies ahead for us during the long holiday. experience of the pahang trip, the uncertain probability of working at PSEA, outings with TEAM LMGT.

feeling far thought gone, was merely suppressed, and when it returned, it was ephemeral.
lasting only briefly, it seemed to have dissipated even further.
who knows when it will be back, but taking chances will not help.



gosh, its gonna be nothing else but absolute fun, as well as a journey of constant learning of life that lies far ahead. i love this cursed lives we all lead. ((=

it is only in us, that we can determine the things we seek.
it is only in us, that we can grant ourselves strength.
it is only in us, that we can understand our annoyances.
it is only in us, that we can calm ourselves and recuperate.
and it is only in us, that we can make a difference.



you see, it is not which God or deity entities that we find solace and resolution, but in the very one that searches for answers that has them. you just have to look deeper, and see what is the better meaning.

i have decided not to be angry or anything, and realized i'm mostly just disappointed and frustated, maybe shocked that even when i had given real hard thought i had it all going good, and it did not. i must find the greater meaning in what comes. i can choose either to be very fucked up and be all red, or i can reassess and make the situation better.it is always up to us to choose which path is it. with this, i shall improve myself even further.




i love my weights ((=

LARRY - lately has been just down for me; finding out that my efforts to do better had been in vain. how am i to prove that i'm better? what is it that i'm not doing right? everyone in the class had copied data and complete sentences from the lecturers' slides,and got a better fucking grade than me, while i thought of stuff and did my own reasoning for presentations and reports. does copying make better people? what ever happened to originality and individuality? i like being an individual - and i get marked down because i'm different?

maybe i had been off center for my topics, but give me credit for my originality. next time i shall follow closely to the motherfucking slides (like i haven't been doing,) and do better. that's is the only resolution i can make now.

video for ECOM went pretty fucked, and the bitch used the freshmen's video to outdo and humiliate us. watch out, you just might get the best video yet. no one pisses me off and gets away with it. fuck your stupid computer, i did my breadtalk proposition, and have deleted it, and now you tell me you do not have our report. get your fucking computer fixed. the stuff my classmates always sent to you never gets through.

i have something that's in me that needs to be let out. i don't actually think its pure rage, but something more complex even for me to understand myself. either way, fifteen minutes more, and weights it shall be.

maybe i will feel good after it.