LARRY - i feel fucked. i would like to cry, but doing so ain't gonna help. i finally confirmed what i thought,and prayed it will not, but it did. i guess it isn't me to just take it lying down.

but i have to consider her feelings, and with that, i will finally give up. there are always more out there. ending up like kaiyang is gonna hurt both sides, but seriously, the man's following his heart, but oh well. and so, why not just be quiet and then no one else gets harmed by my actions. yea, it would be much better.

i am just a chauvinistic pig. it was stupid of me to be so confident, and i treated girls like so gullible and be pushovers. they are damned humans too, for god's sake. and another thing i suddenly remembered, what a girl ultimately, wants, is to be in control of her life; to be free. i will not tether her to my ropes of my heart.

i'm pretty sure they will turn out pretty alright together, and that i guess they seem more suitable being together. why force her? if i really do care, i will fuck off, and leave it. i just have to concentrate on what's important, and that's developing myself. i shouldn't feel so annoyed either, since i made my choice.

i guess it's better to just slither away silently, and with that, good luck, and all the best. if she's happy, so am i.

let's go Hand of Blood.