LARRY - bored i was in IS class, so i did half my post in there to while away some time.

the lecturer was telling me i should have memorized my elevator pitch script, and that i should not look so aggressive while i'm presenting. great comments on how i could improve, and since the emcee-ing job is coming up, it would be real handy for me.

in between the lessons, i suddenly felt very fearful and dejected. i was like wondering, why the hell am i feeling like this? i was there thinking: dude, remember, your the man. you aren't gonna be afraid of nothing, nor of anyone. psych-ing up, i felt better. this guy ain't gonna fall so easily.

so liberated the whole class felt, since it was the end of the lesson. sweet home for us! but as for me, i wanted to check some stuff out at queensway, so i headed there. good thing the bus came quite fast, and i didn't have to wait long.

was reading the WSS notes i got from heng yi, then slipped them into my bag. most of the journey there i was nodding off to sleep. it must have been funny for the people to see me nodding off in different directions. oh well, hoped this brightened up their day.

combed the whole of queensway, and soon headed home. the bus was quite full, and that they had a couple of Mats right beside me. they always smelt like cheap cigarettes and talked in some fucked up manner, in an attempt to attract attention. man, like fuck off man. i like my noisy music way better then your nonsensical chatter.

home it was, and then had a great home-cooked dinner. it was nice and it wasn't as oily as the stuff outside. after that was feeling sleepy, and so i went to finish up this post. maybe i shall do another later. relaxation it is!

LARRY - back at home, miserating about not using the chance. or chances i had.

today was a rather quick day, with time passing pretty fast. first up we had OPC again, and whoo-wee, was the lecturer boring! so we played around, and since we can't use laptops, i went on my phone and used ebuddy to chat. and then cam break time, and we scrambled to use our laptops, and i was fed up with the slow updating of the ebuddy, so i switched back to the proper IM. we only had a few minutes, and then he begun teaching us again. and there i was, still using MSN and unaware about him starting. so he announced to the whole class i was using my laptop and wanted to give me a yellow card. so i told him i wanted a red one, since it preferred the color, and he replied i could do it again, and get it.

oh well, i was bored. after that i felt better, and tried paying attention, to both the lecture and the time. in between this lecture, lingli and i went out to write a little something for the birthday kid, and i would also like to thank the guys who made this possible. sweet shit guys!

off to makan, and we used the next 3 hours filling in the forms for MDES, and that we skipped class in order to hand it up on time. on that, good luck to all that submitted the forms! it sure ain't gonna be easy.

went to WSS class, and that we did lab work and played around even more, and then set off for the clubhouse. the place was in total chaos, with people playing ping-pong with slippers and shoes and other screaming all over. nice! after that, we gathered and got ready to surprise adrian. i don't know of he was surprised, but i think it was amusing.

went to makan place to have dinner, and to enjoy the cake. man, was it funny to see everyone eat off the cake knife. we then used the remaining amount of cake to moisturize the bboy's face. we all think his facial went pretty well.

later, followed karenand joanne to the track, together with huiping, to look after their bags while we did our homework and preparation. you know, the two seniors were actually good at jogging, and they were really focused on doing this. great effort, seniors!

went home, ate a bun, bathed and got about doing my post and IS homework. i'm going to end for the night, and tmr i'm going to school early to study. sweet huhs?

i think i'm set for it. i'm Larry Tan the Man, oozing with confidence i will be, and succeeding i shall!

LARRY - first day of the second week, and i'm already feeling tired.

today classes started at 12, and that we were to have a presentation, but the whole class didn't know squat about it. so we went about doing it and had a little fun with my post-its, and then the lecturer told us: "since nobody did a presentation, everyone will get a zero mark for it,"

dude, we didn't know about this shit man.

so fuck it we did, but at least we had our presentation slides done because stephanny and lingli was on the job. took off to makan place and got myself a pau, then the whole lot of us classmates hurried to the next class. wasted time in there, and soon we had the one-hour break till the end of the day.

we met up with the other SLs and freshmen that were to go basket-balling. waited for the 3.45 mark, and headed up to the MDE consultation room to meet Mrs Lee. in the beginning, when she beeped me a text, i was a little worried on why she wanted to see me, or the others, i thought. i assumed that this had something to do with the joanna incident. but in the end, she was just going to ask me about why i joined the SLs for Kaiser camp, PMC and camp pinata, and most importantly, the role of emcee for book prize day. woo-hoo! i always enjoyed being one. it was such fun and stuff, but the audience don't really care about us.

so i hopped off to the worst module and lecturer ever - operation planning and control, and the guy was fucking irrational, boring, and ass-y. i mean, issuing yellow, red and black cards to people who uses their laptops in his class, and will confiscate it. i mean, hell, if he has so much time, why not use the time to improve on how he teaches us, and not waste it on cutting out card sizes and stuff. it was so boring that i slept in his class today. i'm just lucky i didn't drool.

ended class and went to the bball court to check out the guys on how were they doing. and then we lingered a while and some of us followed siyao to the BB primer CCA. i must say it was a waste of time, to everyone.

we went there only to watch videos, skits and lame games, and these didn't even put across the message of what they are, and what do they do as a CCA entity. i don't understand it either, but i tried to be self-highed and tried to enjoy myself, which i did, but in all, i made many of our guys starving and wasted their time. sorry guys, just wanted to see how they were and stuff, but ugh, did i regret it a little.

had a comparatively short dinner with the people, and headed home. my backache was getting annoying again, so i shall change out from my crumpler, and to my backpack.

still thinking, and when i saw the freshmen couple at the bus stop, it got me thinking, "dude, if a guy like him could have a girl, so could we". but hey, i'm not your average guy man, i'm Larry Tan the Man. i could be that, and more. or so i think.

LARRY - another strange dream involving a relationship in it. what's up with that man? either i have none or dream about this. what exactly does my inner conscience want to get across?

so the dream starts off with my family being worried for my gma, but i know that she is more than fine. and the next scene was that i stood up for this girl which some ah lians were pushing hard on, and i managed to get her away. and that the funniest thing is, we were like playing tag when we were supposed to get changed for some person's wedding. and all i remember is that i took her hand, and went to the hall.

what the hell does this shit tell me? heroics and the like won't cut it, for it probably never will happen. the girl in there doesn't even seem to be of anyone i know, and although i can't recall her facial features, but in the dream it was very clear that she wore glasses... but that's the onlt thing i can think of.

i'm gonna get breakfast and meet lingli for an assignment later, so i'm leaving it off here.

i think i need help on possibly depicting my dream.

LARRY - today was a pretty fine day, even with my nagging, dull backache, i had some stuff done and i'm feeling great about it.

went for a haircut today before meeting the people for shopping. went to cityvibe for a haircut, and ugh wasn't satisfied with their service. they weren't cool with what they said, and i felt taht my hair-cutter person didn't put much effort in giving me a haircut. he was really quick about it, and paid and hurried off to shower and then meet the guys. after all i'm late already.

got home and found out my favourite white berms got fucking hair dye on it, and i went what the fuck, it did better come off, if not i want a new pair by the chinese assholes back there at cityvibe. my mom managed to get it off with bleach, but it turn will yellow. now that was ass, man.

hurry, hurrying, hurried to orchard mrt station and met up with them at wheellock, and then went to far east, peninsula and funan. we got bermies for jiaming, shoes for him, me and my dad, and a checkered red/black lanyard for me. jiaming and i gots vans man, and it was the sweetest shit.

we then went to tiong bahru to disturb lingli and had her to take a break and have dinner. we lingered in the M1 shop and then set off for home.

reached home and had a proper dinner, and started to lace my shoes up. man, was i having a difficult time doing it up nicely. and i did it up pretty okay, and realized that because of the design of my half-cab vans, i had a hard time slipping them on, and so i had to remove two eyelets worth of laces so i could fit in, and even that with some amount of force. ugh, but even so, it was a great pair of shoes.

asked help from my dad to drill a hole into my iPhone's casing, and had it cool, and slipped the bottom piece of the lanyard in. it came along pretty well and nicely. now i'm not goign to drop my phone that often now. went to air my hoodie and packed my crumpler, as well as to replace the ACES badge that fell out. at this point my backache is darn irritating. i should lessen my crumpler's load on my back.

lacing my shoes took a lot out of me, as well as yesterday's exercise. even as i'm that tired, i'm still thinking about her, man.

darn hormones, have you guys not settled down yet?

LARRY - flu had gotten better, but the build up in my nasal passageways sucks, man. after breakfast i went to sleep until 12. pretty sweet, as i am a light sleeper, and there's a frigging construction site already blaring just beyond my estate.

woke up, had lunch, and then tried to push myself with weights. nice it was, and was able to get quite a few sets done. and was i ravenous after that - i ate again, just after a mere hour and a half. dota-ed a while and went off for jogging.

reason why i want to do so much is that i wanted to see how much i could take, and it isn't so bad. clocked in fifteen thousand steps, equivalent to about ten kilometers. nice. was actually quite nice to also take in the sun, and i felt really good after all that perspiration.

went to gma's for dinner, and that's when fatigue finally kicked in. was going for a haircut, but the place had already closed when i got there. oh well, home it was then.

ate supper at ten, and gosh, was wondering why am i eating so much. even now i still feel like eating. hell, all the exercise will go to waste if i don't stop.

strong rush of the feelings again. hmm, felt great, but weird time to have it; being at home all alone, aimlessly toying with my blog's settings, and there, it sweeps me off my feet.

looked at the pictures of yesterday's makan place hoo-hah, and i went, wow, doesn't she look cute!

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LARRY - i saw a pair of white birds while walking to the bus stop. what were those birds? they look like doves, but i never knew they existed in Singapore. i am pretty sure they were all white and not speckled, and that they seemed to be playing with one another while flying across the road. sweet sight that was, but what does that signify? i hope its a good sign for me.

today is friday already. god. its that fast. i should really be paying more attention in class, but i'm using the excuse of being sick to sleep and do whatever i like.

i slept in both WSS and ECOM class, and that i reached a personal record of half an hour! my body was acting pretty weird; i could go quite high and the next moment, feel like i'm some old man with aches and pains in my joints. ugh. the feeling ain't so good man.

so we met up for dinner and everything, and headed to the convention center, where people were waiting and dragging the whole thing because of the tickets they needed for admission to the freshmen dance event. and so we decided to go first because they took quite a bit of time, and that the lot of us we really worn out.

went back home and did half an OPC assignment, and started in my speaking with impact assignment. crazy as it sounds, but i actually wanted to do homework.

i'm feeling the pain in my ass, literally, so i'm going to end my post for the day.

LARRY - so what placing did you guys think our freshmen got?

we have got the first place man. it was the sweetest shit.

so i shall start from the beginning - we gathered at the convention center, and we were to guide supporters of MDE to the lecture theatre. we had a hell lot of supporters, we had spilt out to the seats of the other divisions, and still many of us we sitting on the aisle. we were the craziest people around; we seemed to have the most number of SLs around, so no doubt that we would be more noisy.

the cheering process was pretty cool, with profanity in the air and words made of of the blown-up-cheering-things and what i liked best, was the worshipping of Bonic. we laughed at certain dancers for their amusing actions and their bodies and stuff.

so we watched and stuff and waited , and ha, it was our freshmen and certain SLs turn to do their stuff. hell yea, were we enthusiastic about it! it was so nice to see everyone uppity about it.

dance they did, but unlike the others, they danced with such passion and willingness that had them on to the trophy. when they announced the first two place-takers, (which were MDE and ME) every other division started to leave. oh well i guess i would feel the same too if i was one of them. so when they said we took the first place, most of us ran to the stage and partied. sweet shit that was! and thats when i lost my voice and became MDE's sexiest male vocally. we celebrated and dance more, and headed off to the market to makan. we were still high up in the clouds, and at about 10.30, we all went home.

MDE is the fucking best, i tell ya.

LARRY - yesterday was the day where our freshman had their mass rehearsal with the other divisions in NP. wasn't happywith how the NRA handled the whole fucking rehearsal; our freshmen were not informed of the details of the rehearsal, they had no time to have a proper dinner and they needed to dance all the way to 11.30, which i think its total bullcrap, and the commanding asshole had an irritating voice (sounded like a female Bornic,) and that how she gave orders made me feel that she belittled them. ugh please cut them some slack, i know we do not have the time, but they are still through in their first week in school.

in all i think our freshmen did great! they were confident, sure of their dance steps and i believe, will outdo every of the other divisions' freshmen. today they will have their real performance, and that we will be there for them, so freshmen, let's get it on!

LARRY - woke up with invocative emotions - quite literally. it was really really strong, and now that i see it, it seems like the feelings really do snowball. i just would like to see her now. i think i know where my heart is.

LARRY - took my time to get to school today, and arrived really early to class. it was quite much a drag, but i had to try to listen if i wanted to get into a reputable university. i was so bored in class and lingli was there webcam-ming with many of our SLs, and so i joined in the fun. the little breaks the lecturer gave us were like salvation for me, since i can stretch my body and hop around, instead of being crammed into a table. afterwards we had an official two-hour break, so we crashed, jiaming's, kevin's, kaiyang's siyao's and many others' class. sweet expeerince it was, as it was one first time doing so.

once they were liberated from the lecturer, we headed off to canteen 4 for makan. and i have to say this: the new muthafucking aunty working at the western is pretty much fucked up. dude, i'm really gonna stick the fried chicken up her ass if she pisses me off again. not that i was being picky or fussy, but had like a mix and match kind order, and she pretended not to hear us, only to show her bloody slutty face, as if to say, "fuck you, i ain't gonna care about your orders people, just take whatever i have given and fuck off,"

next time i'm getting the bento.

went off earlier then the rest to meet up with the fresh people of 1L04 to pass them the textbooks, and then hurried off to my next class. i arrived there hot and sweaty, and gosh, was i thirsty.

so classes we had, and i was waiting for five. somehow i don't feel right being in a quiet class now. anyways after lessons we went to meet the rest of the guys at block 51, and then we moved off to the same place as yesterday. we soon got to business, helping the freshmen with their dances ( actually i didnt help out much,) and time soon passed fast, and we have the freshmen dismissed, and went to the market for dinner.

as always we had fun relaxing over dinner, but i had to leave early. dinner was waiting for me at home, and also my parents were expecting me home earlier. went off after saying goodbyes, and headed for the bus stop.was feeling a little tired and dejected, but when i received an sms from huiping, i was, pretty much uplifted, as i would describe it, and boarded the bus and went home. ate dinner, talked to some freshmen on their experience in ngee ann, and ended the night.

LARRY - today was the start of a new term, and whoo-wee, were we high! camp pinata guys we not about to let our camp mode switch off that easily, and we were still dancing and playing the whole day.

went to school early today to meet my freshmen. i was supposed to show them the way to their class, but uh, i do not quite recognize them. can't blame me for that; i only got to see them for half and hour, and that i only saw their backs, since i was always at the back of the class. so i had quite a bit of a problem rounding them up, but in the end, with their cooperation, we gathered and set off. we were late, but at least we had a little fun.

reached class late, needless to say, but it ended almost as soon as i came in. so we had a lot of time to play! lingli and i were still in high gear and went to meet up with the SLs for lunch. in between we meet her freshman class, ate with them and saw them off, and tried to look for places in makan place, and finally deciding to settle for takeaway. fun fun fun!

went back to classes, and pew-whee, were my lecturers naggy! at least they are nice, so i can't complain. we had yet another break, and then to classes again. not a bad idea to have breaks in between - it will help us concentrate better for the next class.

after classes we went to the area outside the dance studio to ensure our participating-competition-freshmen were familiar with our new mass dance. there most of us unwound for the day, and soon it was already 8. we hurried to the nearby market for makan and off we were to go home.

tiring it was, but it was a fucking fun day. ask any one of us - they will definitely agree!

LARRY - dinner was coming up soon, but we had to get abtehd and smell a little nicer first. so we SLs rushed to bathe, and then we were to get the campers to bathe quick. settled down for dinner, and we had a last (or last forty-five) minute(s) for them to prepare their campfire item. we ACES left them to be, and we gots some stuff for the campers to eat. we were at the side .relaxing and talking about the happenings and stuff.

then time it was, for the campfire. we crawled under the tables, and i hit my head. ugh. so then we were here! our MCs nicholas and sushan took the floor, and we had games and stuff. we SLs had to run out between intervals and dance for them, which i think was the bomb. all of us loved it. seeing that our ACES were pretty quiet, i went up as high as i could but it seemed to have little effect. oh well i tried. the performances were cool, and that i could see the ones performing were enjoying themselves. its was sweet shit.

after campfire we headed to the lecture hall between Co-Op and had a concluding session. some cried, but in all it was just great. all of the clans took pictures and stuff, and then they headed back home. that was the end of the camp, but the night is still young for us WonderClique.

we bathed at the sports area near the bus stop, and took off to KAP for the thon. we had our fun and stuff, and headed home at 10.

FOC was the sweetest shit. i loved it!

LARRY - so morning came, and about 6.30 we were awakened by someone, for which i do not know since i was really groggy. so we sat up and warmed up, then off we went to wash up. we had to wake the freshmen and get them ready for PT which was about 7.15.

PT was alright i guess, albeit the few who were lagging behind. There we were getting them going on, and hurrah, everyone completed the run. Next was breakfast for them, and many were quite dissatisfied with what the were to eat - hot dog buns, and that everyone just had one bun each. so it would be evident that people would like more, but aiden had told the campers in such a way it put off quite a number of people. i did not actually know how negative that was, until someone had brought it up. and yea, i would agree it was a little too much.

so next up was the telematch. hearties went first, and we were there cheering them almost all the whole way. they didn't come in first, but they ain't the last either. next then, were clubbies and 'mondies. everyone was, at this point, enthusiastic about the race. sweet it was, everybody was all in the games. it was really, really great to see my campers bonding and helping out each other in every way they can. but back at the grand stands, the hearties campers were "just too tired" to cheer the others on. fuck, i thought, we cheered for you guys with all our might, and you guys wouldn't even want to even try cherring for your mates? it was, a little sad.

we all gathered after the telematch and had lunch. hurrah, the dirty games were next! everybody was prepped up for it, and were more then ready for one of the best parts of the camp. off to our first station for clubbies, and we were all somthered with chili, mayo, vinegar and soy sauce. even us SLs were not spared from the wrath of the game masters. there i was, cursing that i wore FBTs to the games, since the concoction had entry straight to my undies. but hell yea, i enjoyed it.

next stop, the sacrificial station, or so i call it. we have a mate to stand at the grand stand and have the game master to pour water mixed with leftover food for the two days pour over our clubbies' offering. it was rather entertaining for me to see them panic over their mate, not only beacuse they were suffering, but also because the team did not want him to get soaked with the mixture as they answered the questi0oned wrongly. sweet it it was, until some muthafucking lecturer were giving our OCs a telling-off because we were dirtying (their) sports facilities. damned, it belongs to all of us man, we will clean it up once we are done. so get your ass off of our OCs and fuck off man.

many of the games were held at the track, so needless to say, we had to scram to the other stations that were not in the sport facilities. we went to kennedy's station and used up all of his waterbombs sonce we will be the last team to be there. and then we went to the butterhill station. it was fucking sweet to see our clubbies bond and assist each other so willingly and wholeheartedly. i could almost cry man. i was so darn happy!

next up, mass captain's ball. sweet chaotic game it was, throwing balls, adult diapers, balloons filled with ovatine, and mayo. unfortunately one of our ACES girl got hit but a basketball, and the game would be needed to be called off, and also since the game time was almost up. she was okay, just probably a little dazed. kennedy, and a few other helpers smothered the lot of us with mayo. i enjoyed the moisturizing therapy, but the smell was something to think about. it was so difficult to remove the mayo from the hair too.

i shall again for now, and continue in a bit. weare going off to our next class....!

LARRY - camp was great man. okays let's start off from the beginning. we rushed to NP for our briefing, and then scrambled to our positions and roles. i was to be an usher, and then gathered back to the hall to receive our campmates. what clubbies had was eight girls and a guy. nice, i thought, it would be something new for me. i knew everyone would be strangers to one another, so our main task as SLs were to make them bond. after all, when we get them bonded, everything else would be smooth throughout. we (stanley, erwin and i) did not quite accomplish that, but i have to say, it was somewhere there already.

thought up of a cheer, taught them and played games, and soon it was the amazing race. hurrah. we took it slow and steady, and although we ended up last, it didnt matter. we thought, as long as the campers had fun, it didnt exactly matter. then we all had lunch, tthen moved on to mass dances. sweet time we all had, and i noticed the guy campers were actually enjoying it more than the ladies. now, that's great news. many of them would scorn at dances, but this time, it's cool.

we then switched with the other two clans and had campfire preparation, but we had spent more than half the time introducing themselves and martial statuses. man, were that funny in-betweens. we had then got them to bathe and that was the time for the nightwalk. they had a movie to watch, while we held clan debriefs and also had time to bathe. we bathed, had fun in the toilet, and chatted at the hall. time passed so quickly and soon the first campers arrived. we waited and chatted with those who came, and continued waiting and by then it was about two,everyone got back. we all gathered and dispersed to end the night. once i hit the floor, i slept immediately. ugh. i didnt know i was dead tired.

i shall end the camp post for tonight. i have stuff to get to at the moment.

LARRY: today was the MDE Induction Programme for the freshmen, and that this year, it was a little different from the previous years. wehad games and activities planned out for them; even ours last year, we just spent a mere two and a half hours in NP and they just talked and talked about the great things in here. ya, they were great, expect that there' were nothing more to it. many of us felt that this games and activities will bond the class people together, and that they wont be complete strangers when they meet up on monday.

we were made to be guides, ushers and people that manned the registration booths in the first part of the day, and that there were about one and a half times more people than our batches'. nelson, calvin and i were entertaining ourselvesand playing about most of the time, but we didnt forget our main task of course.after that our SLs brought them for either lunch or to meet their advisors, depending on their schedule. i hurried off to meet the class i'm supposed to be with, which was the 4th class of the LMGT course. i only got to be with them for a mere 20 minutes, and i bet they didn't even know my name. but heck, that isn't the main purpose of their programme now , right? at about 12 the games poeple went to the clubhouse to assemble and gather the stuff they need for their station, and then off we went to get ready. the game i am to conduct was minesweeper, which i felt was a little lame, but if i thought of it so, i should be able to carry out the game with ease and make the freshmen feel that it was fun. since i am not exactly able to do so, i can't say that it was lame then.

about two hours passed and i had only gotten about six classes, and we all assembled in the lecture theatre for mass dance and the end of the programme. by then it was about five, and we had a briefing on rules, regulations and being professional for the camp. when that was done we went home and gathered our things for the camp, and our WonderClick got together and satyed at Jiaming's house. many of us slept only at three, and we woke up at about six. even then we were still a little late. all of us took especially funny positions to sleep - we were sleeping on the couches, laying on each other's shoulders, on the floor and on each other, and as for me, i slept with huiping near the toilet door and Jiaming's room's door. we gots to stay over more often.

LARRY: woke up pretty early today, and went to school for FOP briefing. went up the same bus as a neighbour, but we never did say hi, as always.

met up with the rest, makaned breakfast at makan place, off to the lecture theatre we went... yada yada went the people, was given the task as a station master, manning the minesweeper game. my group members were absent today, so i went to join sushan's and lingli's group.

gone a little highertoday, which i felt was pretty good. liberation, i thought, definitely felt good. how long since my last, more enthusiastic me, had shown itself. apart from the coffee incident at the kaiser camp.

when all seemed done for FOP, we waited for the pretzel clan to have their identities and stuff ready for themselves, as well as for our ACES teammates to get our hairbands. so during that period of time we had our usual cock talking, and then we decided to help our poor OCs a little. after all, they are the great minds behind everything, and they missed out quite a bit on the rest of our clan campmates.

we filled balloons with ketchup and ovaltine. damn, the ketchup smelt great, i tell you. but strangely, the expired ovaltine was really wow. because we were hungry, we were tempted to eat some of the premix. we did our stuff, and when the rest on the other side were done, we wenton our way to queensway for dinner, and then to collect our ACES badges. they were the sweetest shit. i never knew the badges would come out top notch. i just hope i dont get my badge too scratched.

makaned we did, and then huiping wasn't feeling too well. the food didn't quite want to stay in her stomach, so it decided to make a run for it. while the girls were in the toilet, jiaming and i went to see some Vans shoes. they do not have the half cabs i wanted, but at least jiaming saw what he likes.

next on to ikea. had little bites here and there, and drank about 2 full cups worth of coffee. ain't the finest, but was sure good. found out not only caffeine makes me a little jumpy, but also makes my heart go fast. felt great, but i'm not going to make this a habit.

went home and went a little crazy from the sweet brew of coffee. sure was fun, when i unwound a little. reached home and i still had the caffeine boost in my blood, so i put to good use of it. since i couldnt do jogging today, i had to settle for push-ups. oh yea, today's was fantastic. even as i finish my entry, i can still feel it going on in my body.

next time, i'm diluting my coffee. get well soon ba, huiping! camp's on wednesday and you're going to miss out on a lot if you don't!

LARRY: just a little something that had gotten me a little more confident.

i read stanley's blog post on relationships and how we over-compensate them. seems true, and that i might have been a little too cowardly. as i always say, if you want something, don't be a wuss and whine about it and do something!

i'm set for it. i just hope the situation looks good at that time. promises i will make, promises i shall honour to her, for us. as for now, i'm going to grab a bite and end the night.

LARRY: weird dream i had last night. but i think i have a better understanding of what i want. closing in to companionship, but still not quite there yet.

was really wanting to own a gerbil, and was spending my morning reading up on how to keep one and stuff. they cost a tad more than their hamster cousins, but i think they are cuter with those tails. haven't had a real pet since my last one (my last"pet" metamorphosized and flew away,). maybe once i gots my pay, i can consider to really get them!

went to bukit panjang plaza to get my pay, but my former manager isn't in today, so i guess i have to get it on tuesday or something. ugh, my gerbils will have to wait. back home, i took off my appliques, and i had a fucking hard time removing the fabric glue. when you want it to stick and stay, it doesnt, and when you want it off, its never a smooth task. spent an hour removing 2 of them but i'm not quite through with it yet.

was also in the process of trying to get a plan for our class outing that's supposedly tmr. teng teng and i were at it for a while now, but the FOC people have the whatyoumacallit briefing for concerning i do not know what, and it ends at about 5, most probably later. damn it man. i really wanted to have a get together with my classmates.

thinking about what's going on tmr, i don't feel so motivated. emo kiddo, i am really becoming. heck, i'm going to have some fun, if not make some. i'm not going to let my matter getting the fucking way.

weights it is tonight. i shall get to it once i finish my entry for the day.

LARRY: yet again, a mundane day. it seems as though i am unable to find any, or much interest in anything i do. ugh, i feel like an emo kiddo. was thinking today i would head down to bukit panjang plaza to get my pay at harvey norman, which i think, the my former manager had been bored of keeping it for such a long time. i decided that tomorrow i will go down to get it, once and for all.

went down to raffles city and then to peninsula, with my siblings. sister wanted to take a look at the stuff at Prints, and we wanted to head to penin, but was stuck in the mall since it rained like hell. so we went about looking at clothes and accessories there, namely topman, french connection, esprit, yada yada. both of us felt that those ain't our style. price isn't justifiable anyways. we gots donuts and a stick of gyoza and settled somewhere to wait for the rain to at least, ease. finally the sky gave up crying, and its off to penin it was.

the main goal of this shopping trip was to get shirts and more appliques for yes, me! i had so sorely wanted a bullet for my valentine white-based-mono-logo shirt, but alas, it was sold out. in the end i had bought a black one instead, and a white 30 seconds to mars one. loved the front, but was a little put off a the design at the back. but heck it was still great, i tell you. i got another of the red nautical star, and another task has been added to my list: to rearrange my appliques and on top of that, add the wes coast something something one my brother gave me. i'm so getting the Rancid band patch the next time i go there.

we decided we were done for the day, and got onto the bus and met up with our parents for dinner, and to get a pair of spectacles for our dad.

so there we were after all the choosing and fuss-iness, i got changed and headed out for the alternating jog (i try to do weights and then jog on the next day), and got on to the same route i took the 4 times before. motivation for my jog kept wavering, but still i managed to keep the picture in my head. all this time, i was thinking: am i, really to do it? do i really want it? how different do i feel towards her as compared to the other girls? what's am i to expect if i went for it? and i would not only have to think for myself, but for the other ppart too. i can't be so focused until it actually harms the person, you know. i gots to take her thoughts and actions into consideration, after all, in order for my proposal to be successful, i would need to do so. from this, i could see i have somewhat gained another level in maturity as compared to my secondary school self.

all this shit kept me occupied till i reached my finishing point. even then i was still thinking. probably, i would need more time. only time will tell huhs. i'm not that patient. hahaha!
walked a lot more than i did on the previous few times back to base, but it felt pretty darn good; the air was clear, the winds were cooling and seemed assertive. it was like telling me, dude, chill. enjoy the night all alone, and relax. relax i did, and reached home at 11.30. checked what i could do to make my shirts fit better ( they were obnoxiously big for me, and their size medium was too darn small,) and so another is written on my to-do list.

another day it will soon be, and i'm going to take charge of what's coming. i shall find my answers soon enough, i guess.

LARRY: i have been meaning to get a new blog up, since my old one was kind of like the "trial" for a blog.
it has been so long since i had made a post, or even accessed any blog. my main reason for setting up a blog, is that i can still have those writing juices going on; i feel that ever since i started studying in NP my brain had sort of slowed down. this, i feel, would help kick start the soggy bit of whatever's left in my head.

secondly, is that i have a medium which i can use to use to help me calm down and collect my thoughts. recently i feel so messed up and fallen, and that it seems i am unable to do anything constructive to help clear things up.

but i know, shit i may feel, there are people who will be there for me.

anyways today has become another one of those days i spent lazing around and getting fat! i needed the sleep and stuff anyways, since we are going to have our FOC. speaking of it so, it is fact that only some of us are going to the FOP, and i am the lucky few to be in it. but what's a school function without your friends? people of the organzing committee, we would like everybody to be part of it, and for most of us, we were looking forward to having some freshmen to look after, as well as to disturb them.

heck, i should drop aiden i message telling him so. if we want something to happen, we should do something, right?

i would wish it was this easy when ineffiable emotions weren't in play. but i myself, am still unsure of my feelings. sometimes it gets on so strong, other times i would like to dismiss it.

either way, i am awaiting monday to see all again. fun, we shall all have!

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