it is only in us, that we can determine the things we seek.
it is only in us, that we can grant ourselves strength.
it is only in us, that we can understand our annoyances.
it is only in us, that we can calm ourselves and recuperate.
and it is only in us, that we can make a difference.



you see, it is not which God or deity entities that we find solace and resolution, but in the very one that searches for answers that has them. you just have to look deeper, and see what is the better meaning.

i have decided not to be angry or anything, and realized i'm mostly just disappointed and frustated, maybe shocked that even when i had given real hard thought i had it all going good, and it did not. i must find the greater meaning in what comes. i can choose either to be very fucked up and be all red, or i can reassess and make the situation better.it is always up to us to choose which path is it. with this, i shall improve myself even further.




i love my weights ((=