LARRY: yet again, a mundane day. it seems as though i am unable to find any, or much interest in anything i do. ugh, i feel like an emo kiddo. was thinking today i would head down to bukit panjang plaza to get my pay at harvey norman, which i think, the my former manager had been bored of keeping it for such a long time. i decided that tomorrow i will go down to get it, once and for all.

went down to raffles city and then to peninsula, with my siblings. sister wanted to take a look at the stuff at Prints, and we wanted to head to penin, but was stuck in the mall since it rained like hell. so we went about looking at clothes and accessories there, namely topman, french connection, esprit, yada yada. both of us felt that those ain't our style. price isn't justifiable anyways. we gots donuts and a stick of gyoza and settled somewhere to wait for the rain to at least, ease. finally the sky gave up crying, and its off to penin it was.

the main goal of this shopping trip was to get shirts and more appliques for yes, me! i had so sorely wanted a bullet for my valentine white-based-mono-logo shirt, but alas, it was sold out. in the end i had bought a black one instead, and a white 30 seconds to mars one. loved the front, but was a little put off a the design at the back. but heck it was still great, i tell you. i got another of the red nautical star, and another task has been added to my list: to rearrange my appliques and on top of that, add the wes coast something something one my brother gave me. i'm so getting the Rancid band patch the next time i go there.

we decided we were done for the day, and got onto the bus and met up with our parents for dinner, and to get a pair of spectacles for our dad.

so there we were after all the choosing and fuss-iness, i got changed and headed out for the alternating jog (i try to do weights and then jog on the next day), and got on to the same route i took the 4 times before. motivation for my jog kept wavering, but still i managed to keep the picture in my head. all this time, i was thinking: am i, really to do it? do i really want it? how different do i feel towards her as compared to the other girls? what's am i to expect if i went for it? and i would not only have to think for myself, but for the other ppart too. i can't be so focused until it actually harms the person, you know. i gots to take her thoughts and actions into consideration, after all, in order for my proposal to be successful, i would need to do so. from this, i could see i have somewhat gained another level in maturity as compared to my secondary school self.

all this shit kept me occupied till i reached my finishing point. even then i was still thinking. probably, i would need more time. only time will tell huhs. i'm not that patient. hahaha!
walked a lot more than i did on the previous few times back to base, but it felt pretty darn good; the air was clear, the winds were cooling and seemed assertive. it was like telling me, dude, chill. enjoy the night all alone, and relax. relax i did, and reached home at 11.30. checked what i could do to make my shirts fit better ( they were obnoxiously big for me, and their size medium was too darn small,) and so another is written on my to-do list.

another day it will soon be, and i'm going to take charge of what's coming. i shall find my answers soon enough, i guess.